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Guess what today is??????
MY BIRTHDAY!!! YAY!!!
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[15 Aug 2005|02:14am] |
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I don't like feeling this way......</3
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[06 Apr 2005|03:11pm] |
WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF:
» I committed suicide:
» I said I liked you:
» I kissed you:
» I lived next door to you:
» I started smoking:
» I stole something:
» I was hospitalized:
» I ran away from home:
» I got into a fight and you weren't there:
WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY:
» Personality:
» Eyes:
» Face:
» Hair:
» Clothes:
» Mannerisms:
[1] Who are you?
[2] Are we friends?
[3] When and how did we meet?
[4] How have I affected you?
[5] What do you think of me?
[6] What's the fondest memory you have of me?
[7] How long do you think we will be friends or enemies?
[8] Do you love me?
[9] Have I ever hurt you?
[10] Would you hug me?
[11] Would you kiss me?
[12] Would you fuck me?
[13] Are we close?
[14] Emotionally, what stands out?
[15] Do you wish I was cooler?
[16] On a scale of 1-10, how attractive am I?
[17] Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
[18] Am I loveable?
[19] How long have you known me?
[20] Describe me in one word.
[21] What was your first impression?
[22] Do you still think that way about me now?
[23] What do you think my weakness is?
[24] Do you think I'll get married?
[25] What about me makes you happy?
[26] What about me makes you sad?
[27] What reminds you of me?
[28] What's something you would change about me?
[29] How well do you know me?
[30] Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
[31] Do you think I would kill someone?
[32] Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you?
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[19 Aug 2004|03:25pm] |
So i got my scedule... that's not spelt right is it??.. i don't know.. anyways
1st = Algebra Trig 301
2nd = English 11 AC
3rd = Drawing Painting and Design 1
4th = Wind and Percussion Ensemble
5th = Keyboarding
6th = Chem 2
and then Marching Band of course.. oh yeah and i have Dee.. YES!!!.. and they changed my CAP teacher.. oh and i have C lunch both semesters..
Ok wait now 2nd semester
1st = Algebra Trig 301
2nd = English 11 AC
3rd = Psychology
4th = Wind and Percussion Ensemble
5th = Chem 2
6th = American Government
Ok i'll update later..
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[08 Aug 2004|11:39pm] |
I just remembered .. i have a Billy Ray Cyrus pin.. Renie found it the other day.. yay..
As to why i felt the need to put that in here i have no idea..
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[21 Jul 2004|10:54pm] |
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Dude i am so sore.. i need my shoulders rub badly.. anyone wanna do it for me.. didn't think so..
Anyways.. i guess Jamie and Krystina think i turned Hans against them.. and i didn't.. and if by some way i did i didn't mean to nor did i want to.. i wouldn't do that to Jamie.. i just don't want her to be mad at.. i seriously didn't mean to do anything.. I'm sorry.. whenever she gets home i'm going to try to call her and see if she'll talk to me.. i hope she does..
So only one more week left of band camp.. yay.. it's not very fun so far..
ok i think i'm going to go find something to do..
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[14 May 2004|10:30pm] |
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I got a job... and guess where.. the Shantie.. haha.. it's all good... i get money!!! i have to go there Friday at 5 so Darcy can teach me what i have to do and stuff.. should be fun..
Anyways tomorrow i have to help steve clean his boat and then sunday i'm going fishing.. yay!!
ooo and six more days until i get to see Dashboard.... i can't wait for that either...
Tuesday i have my spring concert.. everyone should come.. 7:30.. come!!!
Dude my mom got my dogs face shaved.. he looks weird.. i can't wait until his fur comes back..
Uh.. yeah nothing else because i'm a loser and such.. so i'll go now..
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[28 Apr 2004|02:17pm] |
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[25 Jan 2004|05:46pm] |
am I..
- am I pretty?
- am I crazy?
- am I funny?
- am I annoying?
- am I psycho?
would you..
- would you hug me?
- would you miss me if I was gone?
- would you kiss me?
- would you make out with me?
would you ever..
- would you ever go out with me?
- would you ever make out with me in the rain?
- would you ever snuggle with me?
- if you could give me a new name, it would be?
- if you could do one thing with me, it would be?
- if you could give me a piece of advice, it would be?
- if you could kidnap me for a day, where would we go?
just a few questions..
- what do you love about me?
- what do you hate about me?
- what is my best quality?
- if you could change one thing about me, what would it be?
- what is your honest opinion about me?
- what song reminds you of me?
- do I remind you of any characters on TV?
- have you ever had a dream about me?
- do you think I'm a virgin?
- am I huggable?
- if you could give me anything, what would it be?
- if you could promise me anything, what would it be?
personal..
- am I ugly, average, decent, good looking, hott, ect.?
- if you could describe me in one word, what would that word be?
- when we first met, what were your thoughts?
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| Friends only!! |
[12 Jan 2004|03:53pm] |
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I'm making this journal friends only for some reasons... so if you want to be added just leave a comment...
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| Don't waste your time on me, your already the voice inside my head |
[08 Jan 2004|09:31pm] |
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Wow i haven't updated in awhile... lets see.. what's new.. well nothing really.. oh wait i'm officially switched over to Wind Ensemble second semester.. i'm happy.. i got one of the pieces of music.. it's a challange but i'll get it.. it's just i have to get the fingering down and play it extremely fast.. it's all good though.. i can do it... anyways.. lets see what else.. um oh yeah i don't have Roush next semester.. stupid bitch.. i hate that women.. she can't teach worth crap.. and she gets an attitude when you ask her for help.. so i don't ask.. so for that reason i'm failing because i don't understand a thing the women says.. anyways so she calls my mom for a meeting and we go up there and the first thing she says is that i have an attitude in class.. i started freaking out.. i never talk in class except when i talk to Maire.. i never talk to Roush unless i have to and when i do i say as little as possible.. i have never once gave that bitch an attitude.. and then she's like well she can always as for help.. i'm not going to ask for help when she gives you a fucking attitude when you don't get it.. fuck that... so i have Bennett next semester.. so that's cool.. lets see if i can understand it any better with her.. i hope so.. hmmm.. lets see.. people are stupid.. well a few certain ones aren't.. everything was just pissing me off today.. everthing is so wrong lately.. i always feel worthless.. it sucks.. you know what i need.. i need a hug.. i haven't had one in awhile.. well i think i'm done for now..
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So i'm back from up north.. It was boring as i hell.. i hate it up there..
Anyways i don't want to go to school tomorrow.. well i do but i don't .. i want to see my friends.. i haven't seen any of them since the break started.. then i want to see Brian.. i haven't seen him in awhile.. it's not like he wants to see me.. but whatever.. i haven't seen him in awhile so i want.. plus band is a big thing.. i can't wait to play.. i miss band.. but other then that i could care less about.. i don't like school anymore really.. there's nothing for me to look forward to anymore but band and seeing my friends.. that's it.. it sucks but oh well.. i can't do anything about it right now..
Lets see.. i think that's about it..i'll keep what i'm thinking to myself.. no one wants to hear how i pathetic i am and how i can't let anything go.. but then again this is my journal.. i should be able to put what i want.. but oh well i don't care.. i'll just keep it to myself.. ok well i think i'm done..
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| another survey |
[30 Dec 2003|09:51pm] |
| .:*The Basics*:. | </td>| First, Middle, & Last Name? :: | Ashley Marie Hope | | Age? :: | 15 | | Date of Birth? :: | 8-29-88 | | Location? :: | Warren, Michigan | | Any Siblings? :: | Renie | | Are You in School? If So, What Grade? :: | 10 | | What Color is Your Hair? :: | Light Brown | | Are You Male or Female? :: | Female | | What is Your Weight & Height? :: | 130 and 5'0 | | .:*Love & Relationships*:. | </td>| Are You Single or Are You in a Relationship? :: | Single :( | | Who is Your Best Friend? :: | Um.. Maire, J-me, and hopefully soon to be again Alexis | | Ever Been Kissed? :: | yeah | | Are You a Virgin? :: | yeah | | What is Your Sexual Orientation? :: | straight | | What Was Your Longest Relationship? :: | just short of three months.. or on and off for a year | | Have You Ever Been in Love? :: | yep | | Are You in Love Now? :: | yep | | Do You Have a Crush on Anyone? :: | yep | | .:*Right Now*:. | </td>| What Are you Wearing? :: | my plaid chucks, jeans, tshirt, and black sweater | | What Are you Thinking? :: | lots of things | | Drinking Anything? :: | Mountain Dew | | Eating Anything? :: | nope | | Surfing Any Websites? :: | lj | | Who Are You Talking to? :: | Ashley (whore) | | Listening to Music? If So, What? :: | nope | | What Time is it? :: | 10:03 p.m. | | How Many People Are on Your Buddylist? :: | 171 on aim and 167 on aol | | .:*Favorites*:. | </td>| Food? :: | mostly all food I LOVE FOOD! | | Color? :: | black, red, pink, and purple | | Actor/Actress? :: | um.. don't really have one | | Movie? :: | Drop Dead Fred and Escanaba in Da Moonlight | | Song? :: | um.. anything pretty much Dashboard | | Band? :: | Dashboard Confessional | | Type of Music? :: | i like lots of different kinds | | Person? :: | All my friends | | Animal? :: | Black Cat | | .:*Random*:. | </td>| Do You Drink, Smoke, or do Any Drugs? :: | Drink yes.. smoke no.. drugs used to.. | | Do You Believe in God? :: | nope | | Do You Have an Online Journal? :: | yes | | Ever Lied to Your Parents? :: | of course | | Ever Been to a Concert? Which one(s)? :: | yeah Billy Ray Cyrus, Reba, and Hank Williams Jr | | Did You Sleep with Stuffed Animals? :: | yep | | What is Your Opinion on Abortion? :: | i think it's wrong | | What is Your Opinion of George W. Bush? :: | he's kind of retarded | | Did You Like this Survey?: | sure |
Bitches love me 'cause they know that I can rock. brought to you by BZOINK!
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[29 Dec 2003|06:17pm] |
[x] Part 1 -- The Basics [x]
What's your name? ::: Ashley
Birthplace ::: Warren
Age ::: 15
Age you act ::: um.. not to sure
Current location ::: warren
Eye color ::: brown
Hair color ::: brown
Right, lefty or ambidextrous? ::: righty
Zodiac sign? ::: virgo
Height? ::: 5'0
[x] Part 2 -- Describe... [x]
Your heritage/nationality ::: german, polish, irish, french, cherokee indian, and english
Your hair ::: shoulder length
Your fears ::: death, spiders, centipedes (ha ha Maire), heights, and snakes
Your perfect room ::: all black..
What you practically do in a day ::: school, t.v., aim, EAT, and sleep
[x] Part 3 -- What is/are... [x]
Words you overuse ::: lol
Phrases you overuse ::: um.. not sure
Your first thought when you wake up ::: i don't want to wake up
Your greatest accomplishment ::: first chair!!
Something you want to do ::: um.. right
[x] Part 4 -- This or that [x]
Pepsi or Coke ::: Coke but perferably Mountain Dew..
McDonald's or Burger Kings ::: McDonalds
Britney Spears or Christina Aguilera ::: neither
Chocolate or vanilla ::: Vanilla
Adidas or Nike ::: Adidas
Black or white ::: Black
Bills or Coins ((Think $$$)) ::: Bills
Burgers or hot dogs ::: Burgers
Egypt or France :::France
Rock or rap ::: Rock
[x] Part 5 -- Do you...[x]
Smoke ::: no
Cuss ::: maybe a little to much
Sing well ::: um no
Sing in the shower ::: no
Talk to yourself --a lot-- ::: sometimes.. hehe
Believe in yourself ::: no
Like taking these longass surveys? ::: sure
Play an instrument ::: TRUMPET
Want to go to college? ::: yep
Want to get married? ::: well.. kind of
Want to have children? ::: kind of
Think you're a health freak? ::: NO
Get along with your parents ::: most of the time
Get along with your siblings? ::: most of the time
Think you're popular ::: pssh.. no.. popularity is over rated
[x] Part 6 -- In the past month have you..[x]
Gone out of state ::: no
Drank alchohal ::: yeah
Smoke ::: no
Get high ::: no
Done any drugs ::: no
Eaten an entire box of oreos ::: no
Been on stage ::: yes
Gone skinny dipping ::: no
Been dumped ::: nope
Dyed your hair ::: no
Stolen anything ::: no
[x] Part 7 -- Your friends! =D [x] i dont want to do this.
Craziest ::: J-me
Loudest ::: Val
Most shy ::: Alexis
Blondest ::: swatsworth
Smartest ::: Maire
Kindest ::: hmm...
Best personality ::: not sure
Most talented ::: Maire
Best singer ::: um.. right
Most ghetto ::: Alexis.. lol
Drama Queen ((or King XP)) ::: sure
Pain in the ass ::: hmm..
The one you just want to strangle to death ((Homer Simpson style))::: hmm..
Funniest ::: Val
Best person for advice ::: Maire
Dependable ::: hmm...
Trustworthy ::: hmm..
Druggie ::: Alexis J/k
Most likely to end up in jail ::: Alexis ha...
Person you've known the longest ::: J-me
[x] Part 8 -- The Last... [x]
Last dream ::: um.. last night.. about Brian
Last nightmare ::: i don't know
Car ride ::: um.. friday home from the Shantie
Last time you cried ::: about at week or so ago.. i think
Last movie seen ::: Legally Blonde 2
Last movie rented ::: um.. not sure
Last book read ::: Hamlet
Last word said ::: friday
Last curse word said ::: cunt
Last time you laugh ::: um.. yesterday maybe
Last phone call ::: a few months ago
Last CD played ::: The Swiss Army Romance - Dasboard Confessional
Last song you listened to ::: Living in your letters
Last annoyance ::: Renie
Last IM ::: Alexis
Last weird encounter ::: hm..
Last person you hugged ::: my mom
Last person you yelled at ::: Renie
Last time you wore a skirt ::: um.. about a month or two ago
Last time you've been evil ::: dunno
Sarcastic? ::: um..
Last time you fought with your parents ::: not sure
Last time you wished upon a star ::: i don't know
Played Truth or Dare ::: it's been awhile
Spent quality time alone ::: um.. everyday..
[x] Part 9 -- I swear this is the last one! -- Randomness [x]
Are you talking to someone on AIM ::: yea Alexis
Do you feel lonely ::: yeah
Ever TP'd someone's house ::: no but sounds fun
How about egging someone's house ::: no but that also sounds fun
Do you not like dislike not like me? ::: what?
Ain't Eminem and 50 Cent just fine? ::: Umm.. NO
Yo Momma ::: right
Ever been so hungry you felt like you could eat the person next to you? ::: sure
What do you think of George Bush? ::: um.. he's from Texas
Any secret fetishes? ::: no
Do you like to wear chains? O_o ::: right
How many languages do you speak? ::: 2 i guess
Damn.. are your fingers tired? Cause mine sure are! ::: nope
Glad this is over? ::: sure
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[29 Dec 2003|04:49pm] |
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I'm bored and no one's on.. i need to find something to do.. i'll end up doing nothing.. like always.. but yeah.. anyways we got the computer desk in my room.. it was a bitch to get in there.. the computer is all set up to bad it won't work without cable.. oh well sooner or later they'll take it over to gus so i can get it all hooked up.. i don't know when that's going to happen..
Anyways.. so wednsday we're going up north.. i don't want to go.. i never have fun.. and i can never take anyone up there with me.. it would be nice if i could.. but whatever.. and i'm going to miss J-me's birthday.. which sux.. i still haven't give her her xmas gift.. oh well.. ok i'm going to go find a way to relieve my boredom.. adios..
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Thinking is no longer a good thing.. exspecially around this time of day.. every one is in bed.. and i'm sitting here thinking.. which never gets me anywhere because it just makes me depressed.. because i'm sitting her alone.. and all that my mind will let me think about is him.. why does it have to be so damn hard to just not think about him.. just why?... and why do i insist on blaming myself for everything.. well because it is my fault everything is the way it is right now.. I hate how i always think of what would of been.. what would of been if i would of just kept my mouth shut.. just kept my mouth shut knowing that a day or a few hours later i was going to regret that i said anything.. regret that i just gave up the only thing that was going great in my life.. the only thing that made me truly happy.. it still makes my day to just talk to him a little bit.. but i still feel like i'm just wasting his time.. i don't like feeling that.. it still makes my day if i just get to see him.. although it makes my day it still makes me feel horrible because i can't have him.. i can't have the guy i love so unbelieveably much.. I just hate how things are going right now.. but i can't do anything about it.. and i hate how i don't say something to him now because i don't want to look stupid.. i've never once did that.. i've always said exactly what i was thinking.. but it's just different now.. i worry about what i'm going to say to him.. i never worry about what i'm going to say to anyone.. i hate that that's how i think now.. it's not cool.. but like i keep saying.. it's my fault everything is like it is right now.. i'm to blame for all of this.. there's nothing i can do right now to prove anything to him anymore.. he doesn't believe me and i don't blame him.. i would try anything.. but where's it going to get me.. no where.. no where because he doesn't love me anymore.. he just wants a friendship.. so i right now that's all i'm going to get and i guess that's all i can give.. i just want a real friendship.. not a friendship where it's like hey wuts up and what's new and that's it... i want a real friendship where we actually have conversations.. and hang out and stuff.. i want one of those friendships.. and if it means i have to hear about other girls so be it.. maybe that's the only way everything will go away.. i'll get used to it after awhile.. i'm going to have to hear about it sooner or later from him or someone else.. i'll live if he talks about other girls.. that's part of the territory.. it's something i have to face up to.. but yeah this entry is just rambling.. typing my thoughts.. this entry would be extremely long is i wrote everything going through my head right now.. so i'll stop right here.. and anyways i'm tired... so i think i'm going to go to bed.. adios
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| What is it you need.... |
[27 Dec 2003|04:59pm] |
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Wow i'm extremely bored.. i need a god damn life..
Anyways so last night.. my parents came in totally wasted at 2:30 a.m. ... ok so my dad decides to stick is smelly effin feet in everyones face... dude it was discusting.. and then my mom decides she wants to get gas.. i was surrounded in stench.. that's gross.. then my dad decides he wants to take is sock and shove it into my mouth.. so when i got it away for me i could smell is nasty ass feet on my face.. i fucking ran in the bathroom and barfed.. god between my dad's feet and my mom's ass i'm surprised i'm even still alive.. damn.. that was horrible..
Anyways.. i wanna talk to Brian.. not like it's going to be any big conversation.. but i haven't talked to him in a few days.. i wanna talk to him.. but anyways.. um.. i want to find something to do tonight.. but every one's busy which sux.. so yep it's going to be Ashley sitting at home with her parents like always.. I love my parents to death but hanging out with them every weekend gets kind of boring... i need a life!!
Ok well i think that's about it.. i'm going to go now.. see if J-me is home yet.. adios
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[25 Dec 2003|09:26pm] |
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Christmas treated me well...
~DVD player
~Dale Jr Jacket
~electric Guitar
~Plaid Chucks
~Leather Nautical Star Belt
~Lots of clothes
~Lots of Dale Jr stuff
~2 Dashboard confessional shirts
~Blink 182 shirt
~Legally Blonde 1 and 2
~Pirates of the Carribbean
~Earrings and Necklaces
~Little digital camera guy
~watch (spanish numbers)
~Skateboard
~food
~and some other things i can't think of
Yes but my christmas turned out to be pretty decent... It of course could of been a little bit better but oh well... oh yeah we got out new computer.. it's awesome.. it's a dell.. and it has an animation program on it.. and so i can make icons now.. yeah i'm happy.. i like the icon i made.. it's pretty.. and then i made another one that says peeping tom.. yeah it's cool.. so yeah that's about it.. so i think i'll go now... adios
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| Pointless... |
[22 Dec 2003|11:12pm] |
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Yeah so today was boring.. like everday is.. i got up at 11:00 because Renie decided she wanted to get on the computer and blare Good Charlotte.. along with having the t.v. on full balst.. while screaming into the phone because she couldn't hear.. yeah.. i was pissed.. i was sleeping so good too.. fucking retard.. she better not to do it again tomorrow.. i'll fucking kill her.. so then anyways after my mom got home we watched Days of our Lives and As the World Turns.. good stuff there.. and then i went and took a shower and then we left and went shopping for my dad.. he's a hard guy to shop for.. and it would be so easy if my mom didn't refuse to buy him more hunting stuff.. but whatever.. anyways so then we came home and then after my dad came home me and my mom went grocery shopping and then i came home and practiced... i'm so going to get yelled at tomorrow by Oset.. i hope i don't do to bad.. it's easy stuff.. i should be able to play it.. but anyways.. yeah and then i ended up here.. fun stuff.. actually not.. i'm hyper.. i want someone her to act stupid with me.. it's no fun when you act stupid by yourself.. anyways.. so i need to call J-me.. i think i'll do that tomorrow.. and i have to talk to whore.. and make plans.. because we're hanging out some way or another.. and then nothing.. i still wouldn't mind hanging out with Brian.. i think it would be fun.. yeah so.. um.. lets see.. oh yeah.. this made my night.. ok me and my mom were walking in to Farmer Jacks and my mom walks up to the door.. and she's like why won't the door open and she's like pushing on it.. and i'm like my wrong door.. and she's like oh.. and i point to the on that says in.. and i'm like the door says do not enter and she's like oh i didn't see.. it was so funny.. i started cracking up.. I love my mommy.. anyways yep that's pretty much the only fun i had today.. i wish my damn webcam would stop being stupid.. so i could be stupid.. but it's being stupid so i can't be stupid.. wow that's a lot of stupids.. hahaha.. anyways.. oo we're getting a new computer which means this computer goes in my room and Gus messes around with for a bit.. yay.. no more mom hounding over me to see what i'm saying.. and i don't have to fight for the computer.. ooo i can't wait.. well i think that's about it.. oh yeah i want Christmas to get here.. i want my god damn presents.. the only thing i'm not looking forward to is my grandparents coming over.. it's not going to be fun.. i get to have my smelly grandmother sitting around bitching about everything.. god i hope she takes a shower.. OH God i crack myself up.. my grandmother take a shower.. ha that would be the day.. god that's gross.. eww... anyways yeah.. not looking forward to that one.. but presents i am.. ok well i think i'm done now.. this is kind of a pointless entry but oh well.. buh bye... adios
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